Thursday, February 28, 2013

...and Summer turns one!


I can't believe how one little girl can keep a mommy so busy :) (no time to blog:) Life sure is full having this little bundle of joy in my life! This year has just flown by.... with a jam packed social schedule of swimming twice a week, moms & babes, play dates & parties! ...already!

On the 3 Feb 2013 Summer-Grayce Bloom turned 1 and what an awesome year it has been - the happiest year of my life! To think we struggled through so many obstacles and went through very trying times to have her - and what a little gem she is. She's such a happy little girl - always smiling and ever so happy to wave and smile at everyone! Her joy is contagious and I often find my cheeks sore from all the smiling I do when I am around her - she just completes us! She loved her party very much - and played the whole 3 hours:) Her theme was 'Sofie the giraffe' after her favourite teething toy, so I thought why not do a whole Sofie party too :)





















If I look back to when she was born I thought sleep was definitely something I would NEVER do again :) well lets say a full (uninterrupted) nights sleep was a thing of the past - but what you dont realise as a new mom is that it gets easier! It really does. In the beginning you think ok 1 baby is enough - then they get older and your heart starts longing again for another.

Here are a few of her milestones.....she sat at 5 1/2 months, crawled at 9 1/2 months and is still crawling :) She stands on her own but is not interested in talking any steps....why would she when crawling gets her everywhere she wants to go and faster :) She is quite a talkative little thing....says all her basic words like dada, mamma, nanna, ta....and tries to say cold, cami, coming, purple. Her baby babble just flows and its so gorgeous to hear her little voice as she tells me stories and moans at the barking dog :) She is really into packing and unpacking boxes, bags, shoes (her love for shoes is already emanent)  - she loves art or pictures on the walls and insists on touching and feeling the textures...wonder if she will be creative like her mom:)

Highlight of the year - our trip to Dubai - In her first year of her life she has been 3 times to the UAE (first in utro:) the second time she was 3 months and now she was 11 months. She had an absolute ball and got spoilt rotten by her Nana & Papa. Having them live so far away is the hardest thing - thank goodness for Skype else we would not manage the distance! She was an absolute angel on the flight, she got alot of attention from the air hostess as they kept wanting to take photos with her :) She was so friendly to them that they couldnt help but love her! Shes a real little social bunny like her dad - loves people and adventure! The world is her oyster!




I continue to thank God for her - she is more then I could ever have asked for or imagined! He really has blessed us. We continue to seek Him as we start to plan for our next child. Children are a God-given blessing and I speak for my husband and myself when I say we are so so grateful for our little princess. Mommy & Daddy loves you soooooo much! xoxo






Monday, May 14, 2012

Mother's Day

Firstly Happy Mothers Day to all you fabulous mom's out there. Being a new mom myself, I have a new respect for what being a mother means ... Complete self-sacrifice ... A choice you make every single day, to put someone else's happiness and well-being ahead of your own - willingly!  Taking a step back... I'm reminded just how difficult Mother's Day use-to-be for me ... How it reminded me every year that i was suppose to be a mom to the baby girl we lost and the heartache of failed attempts to conceive again ... But God had a plan ... A perfect plan!  I hold Summer in my arms and stare at her perfection, tears streaming down my face, heart bursting with joy, I just thank God over and over again ... for breathing life into my womb and entrusting me with this blessing. She's a miracle. She grew in my broken womb ... and she's perfect. Today my heart is breaking for all those hundreds of women trying to conceive their miracles, doing everything in their power to get their hearts desire ... today is hard for them ... Very hard! I know. Lord please see their hearts, their desires... Amen x

Tuesday, March 20, 2012

Little Miss Bloom - 6 weeks

The time is flying - our princess is already 6 weeks! She is an absolute angel and such a blessing! She really is a good little girl! Nights are not too bad either - waking for 2 feeds - and then she goes straight back to sleep. Today she started the cutest little girgling sounds and cooing - with a smile! She just loves her nanna and seems to perform her little cute antics for her....:) Im just food to her :) Still breast feeding and loving it - I still think its so wonderful the way the body works and that I am able to keep her alive with the milk my body produces - is the body not an awesome thing! God is so good! Here are a few pix of our princess! Will post her shoot pix when I get them - should be this week! Off to get ready for bed...Summer will be waking soon for a feed... *night world xxx




Our Birth Story

Scheduled due date for caesarian - 8th Feb 2012. It all started on friday the 3 February. Woke up early that morning with loads of excitement - my mommy was arriving from Dubai - a few days before our baby girl is born! I am so excited to see her and share with her the excitement we both feel for the arrival of Summer-Grayce. I fetch her at the airport and we rush for my last check up at my gynie...he requests I do a stress test in the maternity ward before I go up to his rooms...the test takes longer then before - for some reason Summer-Grayce was jumping around and they have to redo the test! By now my mom has not slept for 24 hours as she flew through the night and she catches a few winks on the chair next to me as I watch the machine beeping at every movement she makes. We rush up to the doc's rooms as we are now nearly an hour late for our appointment, when I arrive I go straight through and do all the usual urine checks, weight and blood pressure - all looks great! Then doc scans me and does all the necessary measurements - baby girl is doing well - all on schedule. My mom starts asking doc all these questions about what she sees on the screen - mom says, "oh cute doc is that her hand" doc replies "no thats her stomach :) hehehe

Eventually doc scans over her abdomen and mom asks again - "doc what is that" and he is quiet... he replies I'm not sure - never seen this before.....now that is not something you want to hear! My heart sinks and my mom and I stare at each other...thoughts start rushing through my head oh no how can this be - I have been blessed with the most amazing pregnancy - healthy all the way, now 5 days before my due date and there seems to be something wrong! I start shaking....

...doc calls in his assistant and says "Nikki get Dr Nicoli on the phone..." its late on a friday afternoon and no reply from Prof...so we start hunting for another doctor for a second opinion as to what this could be in babies tummy. Eventually I get an appointment with another gynie (lets call him Dr H) in the hospital and they are waiting for me in their rooms....I am tearful and concerned as my doc suspects there is a block in babies colon and a block in the colon could perferate at anytime. Dr H asks me my history ....how far am I, "37 weeks 3 days", etc etc...eventually he scans me does a few measurements and says baby girl looks healthy - then he gets to her tummy and sees the same thing (it looked like honeycomb on the scan). I had never seen this before on any of her scans. Dr H says the same thing - I've never seen this before! He manages to get Prof Nicoli on the phone and they all make the decision to take her out immediately as she was estimated to weigh 3.1kg's and over 37 weeks. Within 30 mins I was in the theatre being prepped for surgery. Called my husband immediately who was at a lunch with his Directors on their 3rd bottle of vino :) he got there in 15 mins! (broken side mirror later - thats another story for another time)

I had the spinal block (ouch) I am so tall that they battled to get the needle in - they kept telling me to bend more into the fetal position (a bit hard when you have a big bump in the way). Eventually all went numb and operation could start! I was still feeling quite emotional but also excited to meet our little angel. They had prepared me that baby would have to go to the NICU for tests and maybe have to have surgery. So all the top surgeons were called in and all was arranged ahead of the birth - my doc did not want to take any chances - it had been a long road getting here and we were hoping everything would be ok. In my heart I felt a sense of peace, and just had a feeling all would be ok....

At 5:54pm Summer-Grayce Bloom was born, weighing a very healthy 3.54kg's and 52cm long - my Paed was absolutely amazing, she held my hand the entire time and kept telling me what was happening. She lifted my head and I watched them pull our princess out - wow amazing! Just after they cut her cord she started to cry - that was just mind blowing - hearing her for the first time! Tears began to flow... my Paed placed her on my chest immediately and told me as far as she could see she looked perfectly healthy! I held her for a few minutes but all of a sudden felt very nauseous and felt like I was going to faint... apparently I lost alot of blood due to low lying placenta (doc managed to get the bleeding stopped thank goodness) but I had to be placed on oxygen till I felt human again. They then brought baby back once she had been checked and weighed and all wrapped up. I was then stitched up and my husband went with them to take baby to the NICU for further tests. The caesar was really quick, a little overwhelming having them cut you open and pull and tug at you but you cant feel a thing. In recovery I started to regain movement in my feet already - I was amazed - but just wanted to feel like normal as soon as possible. With the feeling of my legs came the burning pain in my tummy - pain was manageable. All I could think about was holding my baby and getting her to latch. By now I was not too worried I just have this great sense that all was going to be fine. I was then taken to my private room and immediately they brought my baby to latch.

Back in the NICU they put a pipe down her throat and took an xray to see what was going on - fortunately the block (merconim illious) had come loose when she was born and all looked 100% fine! Thank the Lord! Prof Biel was called in to look at her and he gave her the all clear!\

I was so blessed with the breast feeding - she latched first time - I had lots of colostrum. Day 3 my milk came in and the nurses showed me how to massage the knots out and helped me over the next few days how to latch. They were amazing. By the time I went home we had the breast feeding thing under control. Fortunately for me no cracked nipples, not engorgement! All went so very well. 6 weeks later and we still going strong!

The worst part of the emergency birth was I had nothing with me, all our cameras and video cameras where fully charged lying ready for the day of action. My bags were packed but were 60 km's away - at home! My mom who had not slept in nearly 48 hours by now had to drive all the way home to fetch all our stuff as the nurses needed clothes for baby - my stuff arrived at 12pm!

The next few days were amazing - we were all on cloud 9 - the happiest time of our lives! The pain was managed with omnipon injections (1 after the op and another the next day) after that it was suppositories and painkillers. I must say I did not battle at all from the caesar - I was up the next day and felt no pain at all! I recovered about 1 week after the op.

The best thing of all was brining Summer home to her bedroom - eventually I got to use all her stuff in her room - all those days of preparations and the little one was here!

The next few days were difficult adjusting to the lack of sleep, and the constant changing of nappies and learning to care for this new little life! After 2 weeks I finally felt human again and that I was getting a grip on things. At 6 weeks things are starting to feel alot more normal. We take her out quite alot and keep busy where and when I can. I am so grateful to finally have our little miracle with us! She is here! We are so blessed. I am forever grateful!

Thank you Lord for this blessing!

Tuesday, February 14, 2012

Our miracle is here!

Summer-Grayce Bloom was born Friday the 3rd February 2012 @ 17:53 via emergency caesarian. Weighing in at 3.54kg's and 52cm long. Our precious princess was born at 37 weeks and 2 days. Our scheduled date was the 8th Feb but we got blessed to hold her 5 days earlier then expected. She is absolutely perfect in every way and we are completely besotted with her - she has stolen our hearts and we are so grateful to God for this perfect blessing!

She is 11 days old today :) and I still cant stop staring at her - I just cant believe that she is here and she grew in my tummy and after our long journey and battle to have her - she is here!

My heart is over-joyed and I can't stop thanking God for her. There is this amazing peace over our home - we are so blessed to have her in our lives.

I will post our birth story soon :)

Signing off with a grateful heart xxx

Thursday, December 22, 2011

the last stretch - before we meet you - 7 weeks to go!

Boy oh boy has the time flown past! The last 2 months have just come and gone... been busy with getting everything ready for our princess! In between that got blessed & spoilt with the most amazing baby shower and had our first 4D scan - wow that was super special seeing her for the first time!

I will be 8 months (32 weeks) this week! Our caesar is booked for 8am on the 8th Feb 2012 - wow just around the corner! So far I have been feeling completely amazing and really feel that pregnancy is good for my body - I feel better pregnant then when I am not! No more pimples, no more migranes, no painful periods, no shoulder pain, no hectic mood swings & best of all no endometriosis can grow as pregnancy is a temporary cure for it... this pregnancy has really been a blessing for me - thank you Lord! Its just the last few days I have felt tired and a tiny bit nauseous again - think its just the last trimester and maybe also the heat does not help! Tummy getting nice and big now :) I just love feeling her more and more as she grows! I can already see her sleep patterns and when/what wakes her...she is a real blessing already and I just know she is going to be a wonderful little girl! I have also been recovering from bad flu, I decided to fight it on my own without and antibiotics, and so glad it passed, now its just getting strength up again and getting ride of the sniffles:)

It's that very special time of the year again - Christmas - the birth of our Saviour - I love this time of the year and my heart is bubbling over that I will be finally caring the best gift I could get - a baby girl! I remember that Christmas was always an exciting time for me but I always had this deep longing and burning desire for a baby - I would say all I want for Christmas is a baby! This year I can say that God has given us the best gift - firstly His Son Jesus and secondly a child of our own! "baby girl I really cant wait to hold you"

Her room is almost done - all her furniture has arrived and her cupboards are all packed - it looks absolutely dreamy - exactly what I dreamt it would look like - I could sit in there for hours - such a peace and happy place! I imagine sitting on the chair with her in my arms....her sleeping in her big cot....bathing her....so so special! Her daddy will be hanging her pictures and mozzie net this weekend - then all is done. The last few weeks we will spend washing all her linen and clothes. Hospital bags are basically packed - which sets my mind and heart at ease - should she decide to surprise us! we had a wall mural made with a scripture that was placed on my heart for our princess, it says, "For I have plans for you Summer-Grayce, plans to prosper you, not to harm you, to give you hope and a future." That is the desire of our hearts as her parents.

Here are a few pix from her 4D scan - she was fast asleep and really not in the mood to be woken up! I think now that I should have had some coke or sugar to wake here hehehe but never thought of it! I really think she looks like her father - I cant see anything of me :) It also looks like she has hair - will be interesting to see if she is going to be a little blondie like her mommy and daddy! I stare at her scan pix on the fridge and try and imagine how she looks but you just cant! I kiss her nose every morning....its all very cute!

26th November 2011 - Baby Blooms Baby Shower - wow what a spoiler of a day! It was a High Tea in the Loggio Room at the Westcliff Hotel in JHB. What a beautiful day! Always dreamt about my babyshower 'one day' and this was more then I could ever have imagined! Our princess got spoilt with the most beautiful gifts and I was totally showered with love, smiles and happiness over the joy of baby bloom! Our hearts desire created from prayer, a thought, a hope a dream....

As I write this I reflect back to the beginning of the year and even though I had a very expectant heart - I never imagined our miracle would be growing in perfection in my belly so soon...how God just made the way and how He has been with me every step of this pregnancy - I continue to pray for his protection and safe delivery of precious Summer-Grayce - it is only because of His grace we will have the honor of bringing up this precious child of His.

Merry Christmas to all our friends, family, fertili-friends & precious people that read this blog - may you too be blessed this Christmas and know that the maker of our universe is besotted with you and has only got plans to prosper you and not to harm you! - Jeremiah 29:11