I believe its faith...

I'm sitting here at the hairdresser getting my long overdue highlights. You see while you going through the whole IVF cycle you want to give those little *lully's* every chance they have... (which meant no harsh highlights on my roots:) ...

So I am excited for a fresh new hair-do and most of all excited for my trip to Dubai tomorrow - going to visit my best friend (other then my husband) - my mother and my hard working dad - whom I love to bits - miss them both so much! Wahoo I am super excited for a bit of sun, and R & R...God knows I need it - my soul needs it - my body needs it :) Just need to get away for the crazy hectic day to day pressures of life, with the whole baby thing added on top of that...Dubai is a little escape for me... just wish my man was escaping with me! He is away on a 10 day Conference at Sun City...doing the things boys love most...riding, talking, eating, sleeping motor bikes :) Polaris motor bikes ;)

...wait lets try this again - ok I'm now sitting at the airport about to board a flight to the tropical desert of Dubai:) I call it Planet Dubai - cause I feel like I have left this world and landed somewhere else when I go there - it does not feel like reality.

By the way my hair looks and feels great again (well to me) I have the best hairdresser in the world! Look out for Rich & Famous in Bedfordview - name replacing "Square Bubble"

So...on to why I am sharing this *crazy-wild-all-over-the-place* post....(sitting on the plane now waiting to take off...)

I don't think there is one day that goes by where I am not thinking about that little life that will one day be ours, that I feel is already apart of us, maybe its weird, maybe its wrong for me to imagine it, or maybe its just faith....I would like to believe its faith...

I went to my mom's house to drop off a whole bunch of baby stuff that I have been given, collected on my world travels and that people have blessed me with (also in faith) over time. One of the gifts is this beautiful wooden cradle from the UK, it was my cousin's who had all 3 of her children conceived via the miracle of IVF, first the twins (Thea & Fletcher) then our gorgeous little boy Corin. The cradle has been at my house for awhile but after the news of our BFN, I just felt I should store it away for a little while as not to continually remind me every time I see it in the garage:) So I took it to my folks house and I set it up in one of the spare rooms - I didn't just want to pack it away in the cupboard in fear of losing the screws and parts, so I put it up. As I was doing that Bossie the *Godly* women who works for my mom said now this is awesome - this is an act of faith, this is you believing and acting on what your heart desires - you are preparing for what you are praying and trusting for, and I thought wow - that is an awesome way of looking at it. Some people would say that is tempting fate or whatever, but that's actually me believing! Awesome:) It will happen, we will have beautiful children its just a matter of when it's our turn - God's time...His word does not say "if it is My will" His word says "it is my Will for you to have children and be fruitful and multiply" that is the blessing God has for His children and I am a child of God and I know he will bless us with a baby/babies...

Watch this space - I believe it!

...I finished typing this blog at 10 000 feet in the sky - so will only be able to publish it when I get back online....thinking of all you beautiful peeps reading this...I pray you too get ALL your hearts desires - just believe xoxo