We got our BFP** ... feeling so blessed!

Wow what can I say... the last 24 hours have been somewhat of a roller coaster of emotions as we waited to get our blood test results. It's been nearly 2 weeks since they put our babies back:)

So I got a call at 2pm yesterday afternoon from the nurse at the Aevitas Clinic saying ..."Mrs Bloom you are pregnant!" I burst into tears and said to her "promise" and she said " I promise you!" I just cried and cried and cried..... phoned Tom in complete tears and said babes we are pregnant! What can I say - such a happy moment for us! It is all still sinking in, but I am so proud to say that we are pregnant. Thank you Lord for this amazing blessing...for knitting this child/ren together in my womb. From the 1st day of this IVF cycle, we have just been blown away as we witnessed how God just moved in every area of our lives!

For 2 weeks in Cape Town we got reports every second day on how well everything was going and what our babies were doing and how they were developing, and then they put them back in and then nothing...just waiting and more waiting till the day you test to see if this whole cycle has resulted in a BFP.

These last 2 weeks of our cycle have been the most difficult for me as I have had to rely on the unknown 100%. I went through moments where I was completely convinced it was negative... and other days when I just knew this was going to be it...some days I would feel symptoms and signs and then there were days when I felt nothing... the worst was 5 days ago when I just could not take the waiting and begged and pleaded with my husband for me to POAS (P** on a stick) - which is not recommended by the Dr's as most times its way too soon, and then the negative result causes so much anguish...my DH managed to convince me to just wait it out. After feeling very overwhelmed and tearful I had a good cry that whole day. That evening I was so desperate for God to just give me peace to take away this one thing that has been occupying my mind everyday for the last 4 weeks, and I just lay there in my bed praying and praying and then God showed me something...

If I back track to the day we had our Embbies put back, that morning we left early for the clinic and when we were driving the sky was this bright orange colour and there was this soft soft rain, as we took the turn off to the clinic we turned around a bend and on our left was the most beautiful rainbow I have ever seen...it was a FULL rainbow from the one side to the next and I remember thinking oh wow could this day be any more blessed!! After that I never really thought of it again...until when I was lying in bed with this unsettled fear of the unknown and praying for peace...it was then that God showed me the picture of the rainbow again and said "I sent a Rainbow to my people as a promise and that rainbow i sent to you (anita) as a promise" ...

I went to sleep singing You are faithful...

"Lord of all the earth, how You care for me, You have made me, You will save and carry me always - You are faithful, Your joy is my strength
Lord you are my God, i rely on You, i put my hope in things not seen, Your promises all true, Always you’re with me, Your hand will lift me, My trust is in your hands, Always you’re with me
Your hand will lift me, My trust is in your hands"

Then 1 day later after dreaming the whole night about the result, we woke up at 2am when DH left for a business trip, and as he was getting ready I was digging through my draws desperately looking for a HPT that I bought a few months back - yay I found it and placed it next to my bed for the morning - and as my DH kissed me goodbye he said to me, "babes its all gonna be ok"...and i said I can't anymore Im gonna POAS - which he said to me "babes remember God's promise!" And after that I went back to sleep and had such a restful sleep and woke up in just peace. [I never POAS;]...patience...

So as difficult as these last 2 weeks have been, i was reminded all the time to just believe in what I could not see and hold onto what God has promised us... and when my faith was low I just gave what little faith I had to God in prayer and He blessed us!

This journey feels like a million years...but when you get such good news it makes it all seem so less painful....

Please know that there is hope for everyone of us! In every situation - He is faithful. Just believe it with everything you have, and when the situation looks bad still just believe it!

He has plans to prosper us not to harm us - to give us a future! God loves us so very much, and wants to give us our hearts desire - just believe!!!

Thank you to all our friends and family for your love and prayers and we give all glory to you Lord!

Thank you for our miracle.

Thank you for the little miracle growing inside of me.

We are blessed.